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* My endless endless listening to The Skeleton Tree. I think I get it now. It is a mirror draped in black. The mourning. But it isn't about Arthur, or necessarily Cave's own grief but rather his NEED. The need that his insane heartache has wrought, inside and outside of him. I think....the album is about Suzie. The mother of the dead child. And how Cave needs her. His heart is broken, but more, his heart is broken for her. He accepts that Arthur has fallen away from them, he accepts that. But the aftermath of that falling is what he cannot accept. The phone ringing, the line of purring cars, the rain, the empty hands, the paralysis, the inability to breathe through the pain, the need to vomit in the sink and wipe your mouth and carry on. The world turns. With no way in which to care for those left behind, the bereaved. And he bears the responsiblity of bringing this life into the spinning world, the world that can spin you out of it.

It's terrible to see humility on his face. He's always been private and fierce and incredibly above it all. A true rock god.

I hope that the film and this album make him a few years' worth of salary. I really do.



* Writing has slowed down because I'm back in planning mode. I've got Scrivener open with this "new" story and trying to storyboard it, and arc it, and flesh out the characters. I'm focusing now on fictionalizing the Giger/Lo love affair and using Persephone/Hades as the cloaking metaphor. It feels good to map it out, it feels bad to not be coaxing any words onto the page. I'm also toying around with my crazy assed witch baby story. I want to send that off to one of these dark 'zines.

* My mother wants to fly to upstate New York for Christmas. I'm not sure what my response should be to that. I don't know if my father could even attempt it. But...it's strange to think we might be doing the holiday alone.

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halfshellvenus
Sep. 12th, 2016 11:28 pm (UTC)
Is there some reason your mother wants to go to New York at Christmastime? Whom is she hoping to visit? Would they be any more important than your father spending time with his children, or is that a different set of children up there?

bleodswean
Sep. 12th, 2016 11:31 pm (UTC)
Good question, K! Yes, I should have mentioned that one of my sisters lives up there. But only one of her children will be able to come home for the holiday...I'm not sure what is motivating my mother to this. And flying in the winter?! Yikes.
halfshellvenus
Sep. 13th, 2016 12:58 am (UTC)
Ah, this makes a little more sense now.

Except for dragging your dad across the country during the worst flying period of the year (passenger volume + weather are just awful at Christmas).

I would make more sense, to me, to ask that sister and her family to come visit. More expensive, certainly, for your sister's group to travel, but about zero taxation on your father's health and stamina. *sigh*
mallorys_camera
Sep. 13th, 2016 12:00 pm (UTC)
Fly to upstate New York with them and come visit me-e-e-e-eeeee! :-)
meridian_rose
Sep. 15th, 2016 03:56 pm (UTC)
I hear you, but thinking, planning, editing, posting, promoting, submitting, etc, etc, are all different parts of a process. Not the same as the most important, visceral thrill, of writing the words, but each may have value in creating a finished piece.
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