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* It is almost December and I'm counting down because....I like beginnings and endings and I've assigned December 1st as a Beginning. And I need one. Not a restart because that's currently not an option of any kind. Although I do remember the "restarts" of my younger self, some self-imposed, some forced upon me from circumstance, and I don't think I could survive a Beginning of that sort any more. In this life. So, looking forward to Thursday! :) I'm going to spend the first part of this week readying myself. Cryptic, yes? But most of the preparations are mental and emotional, labeling and compartmentalizing, dusting and sorting, and leaving a nice clear quiet spot in the midst of all this current mess.

* Thanksgiving was part and parcel of the current "mess". I'm making a concerted effort to NOT analyse it to the death any longer....but yeah. Family. We did discover, in a cook-off, that D's deep-fried turkey was a zillion times tastier than my roasted bird. Also, when no one is capable of lending a helping hand to the clean-up, it takes five dishwasher loads and three days of hand-drying to work one's way through all that. Yesterday we spent the entire day with Kidling2's gf's family and the no-drama zone went a considerable way towards me finishing the long holiday on a positive note! Note to self:  let it go, smile, be warm, be open-hearted.

* We watched netflix's Paranoid the past two nights and enjoyed it muchly. Story was melodramatic and the ending anti-climatic, but then aren't all these detective shows? Not sure what that is about or what it means in a conversation on writing crime thrillers. The characters were interesting and their side stories compelling. And the German arc was a great bonus! What are you guys watching? I'm kind of feeling like a The Killing rewatch only because I miss Joel Kinneman's Stephen Holder. Maybe I'll begin my annual watch of the numerous interpretations of A Christmas Carol early....

* Listening to quite a bit of David Whyte and his inspirational Jungian poetry-based talks. Even though my beloved thistle_verse and I traveled far to see him speak in person only to discover he's a bit of a dinosaur goofball, I forgive him. His spoken word cds are deeply moving and truly affecting. What To Remember When Waking is the ultimate collection, if you're interested!


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thistle_verse
Nov. 28th, 2016 05:04 pm (UTC)
when no one is capable of lending a helping hand to the clean-up Uh, what?!?! I suspect you are being overly generous with that view of it. That's awful!

I've been curious about deep-fried turkeys for a few years now. I hear they're juicy!

XO! Thinking of you!!
bleodswean
Nov. 28th, 2016 05:49 pm (UTC)
Everything is kind of awful right now, B, with family of origin.

They ARE juicy! And fast! I don't think I'll roast another turkey. This is the best way by far.

Hope you guys are doing well! Anxious to read your novel!
thistle_verse
Nov. 28th, 2016 06:31 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear that. One hopes "tricky" family members can meet you halfway when things are rough, but I guess that's not often the case.

Miles just started at his new school and program this morning! He was really excited, and I'm feeling good about it. Now I need to get the rest of my shit together. And more writing time!
bleodswean
Nov. 28th, 2016 06:57 pm (UTC)
My family is in crisis, B. There is no other way to look at it.

Yay for Miles. Gods, how lucky you are to have such a resource. We had no option but mainstreaming and home schooling. This is a good thing. Being surrounded by autistic folks here...I'm still surprised by this diagnosis, but it's a positive thing from here on out I would say. Educate yourself!

And yes, write! Although I did have to take those early years off from my own dreams in order to shepherd my child.
thistle_verse
Nov. 28th, 2016 07:11 pm (UTC)
Yeah, this classroom/program is deifnitely a HUGE blessing. It's a Kindergarten, which I didn't really want, but it's a special ed Kindergarten, and we made it clear that we were perfectly fine with Miles doing Kindergarten twice. It's got ABA, Speech, OT, all of that. I think it will be really good for him. They even go swimming once a week!

It's deifnitely a lot, and I totally understand what you mean about the shepherding being a full time job in itself. We've 3-4 late afternoon or evening appointments a week now for Miles alone-- OT, PT, and social skills class. It's alot of keeping schedules straight and running around. I'm glad to be able to get a chunk of time while he's in school.

The final child behavior psychologist we saw really convinced me about the autism. I mean, it's a pretty huge umbrella term, obviously. But watching her specifically elicit responses made certain things like eye contact with people he doesn't know, the echoing, etc much clearer for me. She did not mention a mild-moderate-severe label of any kind. I also think I was... not in denial, per se, but underestinating some of his "quirks?" I mean, we've had to make sure the chain is done on our front door since we moved here, because if it isn't he will decide to bolt sometimes. He will still do that in certain moods, because he figured out how to take the broom and unhook the chain that way. That's not "normal" to have to worry about your 4-5 year old literally running out of your house, but for some reason I didn't really *get* it until all of this. I don't know.
mallorys_camera
Nov. 28th, 2016 05:12 pm (UTC)
I admire your discipline. I am putting off all "new beginnings" until January 1! :-)
bleodswean
Nov. 28th, 2016 05:49 pm (UTC)
I usually do! But...the past few months....have felt like aeons and I just want to START again. :)
murielle
Nov. 28th, 2016 05:14 pm (UTC)
When I am not reading Idol entries, I'm watching Penny Dreadful. I watched season three for as many days, decided disc two is my favorite, and just started season one. I think it would be good to go all the way through the series, haven't yet.

I like your idea of Beginnings. I also like your choice of choosing the last month of the year as the Beginning.

I can't believe there was no one who could help with the clean up, E. But then it can be tricky. In our church they don't go in much for "helping" the hosts. I offer, but only once in a blue moon is it accepted. But it's the same with family. I offer, and mostly it's refused. At my uncle's, I just go ahead and do it.

One of these days I'm going to have to listen to your David Whyte. I like that title...There are things I need to be reminded of when I awake.

((Hugs you))
bleodswean
Nov. 28th, 2016 05:53 pm (UTC)
Ah! Penny Dreadful! We were having such a darned good time with that....hmmmm...we should nudge swirlsofblue to post an episode recap in the comm!

I NEED a beginning, M. Things seriously need to be put back into their containers.

I don't understand my family so much of the time, but especially during times of tension. Ah, well. We were happy to host but I am rethinking Christmas dinner.

*hugs*
rswndrlst
Nov. 28th, 2016 06:50 pm (UTC)

What to Remember When Waking is now on my library holds list. Thanks!

bleodswean
Nov. 28th, 2016 06:55 pm (UTC)
Enjoy! Do let me know what you think!
rswndrlst
Nov. 29th, 2016 02:13 am (UTC)
I will! I'm bummed I have to wait for it.

Also, it's not A Christmas Carol (there are sooo many to choose a favorite, I'm sad I won't get to attendThe Great Dickens Christmas Fair this year to hear it read by Mr. Dickens himself.) but Mr Willoughby's Christmas Tree is a forgotten christmas classic in my opinion.



meridian_rose
Nov. 28th, 2016 08:15 pm (UTC)
Good luck with a new beginning :)
geekslave
Nov. 29th, 2016 02:03 am (UTC)
Good luck with the new beginning.

Sorry Thanksgiving was a mess, but glad it ended on a high note!

Stacey
tsuki_no_bara
Nov. 29th, 2016 04:50 am (UTC)
you had me with the deep-fried turkey. i've never tried it but i reallllly want to. but considering i'd probably blow up my kitchen, i'll let someone else make it.

i can't believe no one helped you clean up, tho! what the hell. i totally would've washed dishes if i'd been there. (one year my parents hosted thanksgiving and i swear it took me an hour to wash up afterwards. it was fun. honestly, it was.)

i hope your beginning is a good one, and that it helps.
halfshellvenus
Nov. 30th, 2016 10:56 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry the Thanksgiving was kind of an emotional mess (and the cleanup-- sheesh), though it sounds as if you went turkey-to-turkey with D, and got to compare results. Our usual Weber BBQ turkey got aborted when the added coals would not light. Even with lighter fluid. G was all set to throw it out (he had a low frustration threshold over that period), but I said to move it to the oven and finish it there. It took several more hours to cook than usual, but had already had a nice head start on the browning.

I'm interested in what your restart entails, and in hearing how it goes. I don't have the bandwidth for that, at the moment, but someday...
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