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Busier than a corpse-grinder in Hell.

Missed an entire Survivor Idol post deconstructing the game. Not sure I have much more to say. I really am not interested in calling out those who I feel turned on me or betrayed the tribe....and ultimately, it doesn't matter. The game wasn't for me. I'm non-competitive by nature and that game required strategizing far more than writing. Maybe some don't want to hear that, but that's how it looked from out here. And I wouldn't have necessarily minded that, but the back-stabbing and drama that went along with folks attempting to subvert was more than I could stomach. Hopefully the next outing will be a palette cleanser.

Mother's Day was nice. All things considered. LOL.

Last Sunday's wedding went well and here's a few photos -














I have a few more small weddings coming up. I don't mind them when they are small and sweet. I think my huge wedding days are over. But never say never! I don't have an assistant anymore and that's problematic. Weddings are fun because everyone is so happy and they want their picture taken.

This week is also packed, but I'm going to make a concerted effort to check in here.




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I'm just totally swamped this week. I'm way behind on [community profile] word_smithing . And that bums me out. Both [personal profile] murielle  and [personal profile] swirlsofblue  are moderators over on LJ, I didn't know how to do that on DW. PLEASE, you two, feel free to jump in over there and post a new challenge or prompt. I won't have another free moment until tomorrow morning.




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I'm wiped out. Just too much stress and I'm still on that wavelength. Obviously, my mother's sudden hospitilization last Wednesday, although she's home now, but apparently not doing as well as we had hoped. I think, and this is being medically corroborated, we are seeing the beginnings of that final decline. Terrible and more than I can really bear right now. I will see her tomorrow and I think it's time to pitch the idea of her moving in with the daughters. Right now we could split the year between here and my sister's place. My East Coast sister won't have her own home for another three years. For those playing along, you know she gave up her career, her salary, her upstate New York mansion, everything to move to Virginia and move her and her husband and her adult son in with her daughter and son in law and two year old in order to become some sort of modern day Mary Poppins. It's not working out. But still, they are committed until my niece is finished with her residency.

Anyway, we would have to find a good solid contractor (impossible with Paradise being rebuilt) and add a wing onto this house as there is no downstairs bedroom. Will my mother be willing? I'm not sure. She's pretty independent for being so dependent a personality.

Then Sunday I shot that country wedding and it was fun but I had forgotten how much freakin' work weddings are. Nice to see a young couple so in love and ready to launch into Life. Their Life.

We were supposed to go to Oregon this week, but I finally finally had to say No. And D understood. We are making the day by day hard decision for LittleDog and it's emotionally wrecking me. Just not in the mood to deal with D's incredibly rude and difficult father. But we will be making that roadtrip the end of this month.

And Mother's Day. My mother decided that I should build a crepe bar for nine folks and serve it up at her home. I just don't argue anymore, so that was stressful. But then when my sister got wind of the fact that SHE might have to produce a food product, she immediately booked a brunch. That took some weight off of me.

I'm not trying to be a downer, just putting this out there. I've been a bit absent. Have to catch up with the writers group and find out who won the crazyassed Survivor Idol and then put that season in the rearview. Not successful, imo.

How are you all?

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Tarot class finished up last night and it really was very inspiring. I'm in one other zoom class at the moment....and am not sure if I will continue taking classes over the summer. They are pricey, first and foremost. They aren't really as intimate as I prefer group work to be. It's hard to get to know the other students because of the format. And that probably means that a ton of really interesting information and personalities doesn't get to surface. At last night's class, for example, we spent an hour discussing our Muse cards and so much fascinating stuff came up. I have quite a few book recs, links, and thoughts to ponder now. None of that occurred the first three classes. 

Anyway. I think I may be investing in another Tarot deck. I will keep those who are interested here informed about my choice. I still love the Alchemical deck, but I'm thinking of going a bit more classical. 

Weather is warming up again and I guess my winter heart has to admit that it's very nice to see spring in all its glory and summer peeking around the corner. We have two big yard projects I hope to have done by the end of May and then we've got plans for June that include much socializing! 

And I'm still contemplating the massive job of painting the downstairs interior. So much cutting in! I'm ready for some new furniture and I'm ready to aggressively minimize our living space. 

.........

That was yesterday morning's beginnings of a post. My sister called and told me that my mother had to go by ambulance to the hospital. I spent a tense two hours but then learned that she's going to be okay. Of course I was the last one to find out because my sister "somehow forgot your number." I'm not even going to begin.

I couldn't get into see my mother because my sister was there all afternoon, so I went down after I met with Sunday's bride and got her house back in order. But she ended up being kept overnight, so today is going to be a physical and emotional juggling act to insure she gets home and gets settled. 

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I've been sparked to write, or at least begin massaging a WIP I've had hanging around for a year or two. I shared the first chapter an Idol ago, but I might share the edited version here. I'm always superstitious about sharing WIPS because of "telling" the story as well as being influenced by readers in regard to tone/direction/characterization. But enough of you have been following my Persephone/Hades work over the years...And this isn't the dreamy lyrical story, it's more of a linear story. Anyway, felt good to return to the keyboard this past weekend. 

Got a crazy thunderstorm yesterday that dropped the temps into freezing and dumped inches of hail that is still out there. Looks like snow. The poor oaks lost all their baby leaves and not sure what that will do to them for the rest of the year. 

I've been hankering for some star-crossed lover reading. What are YOUR favourite novels/fics/stories out there, o' wise flist?! Obviously, Byatt's "Possession" and Fowles' "The Ivory Tower". 

Dead rose bouquet -




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If anyone is interested in writing with a small group of us, we are over at word_smithing. The first prompt is going up today! I need to carve out some time this weekend to write to it.

Busy here. And also feeling that low springtime vibration inside, that desire to BURST FORTH.

Using most of that energy for gardening. Woke early this morning and found a smallish group of does in the yards. It's impossible to keep them out. Working very hard to figure out what they love and what they won't eat. So far they will devour:  camelias, star jasmine, day lillies, clover. I know they stay away from azaleas and rhodies and that's what I'm going to have to plant more of. I have a bucket of Scram but haven't put it out yet because of the rain. Maybe next week will be time.

I'm also mad for these wonderful cut and sew projects!!! I especially adore the fairytale characters. If any of you know of other amazing cut and sews, please please let me know what they are!

Last night, in the Tarot class, we finished traveling through the Major Arcana. Well, you never finish finish, because the journey is cyclical. Right? Of course, with my beginner's energy, I love the first sequence and don't feel comfortable with the last sequence, so that's something I need to work on. Finishing things! Next week we are to share our version of the 23rd card - The Muse. I can see mine clearly in my mind's eye but I haven't worked with drawing for decades and there's no way to photograph it and I might have to incorporate words, too, because that I can do....





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Busy weekend! We moved the kids into their new house! It was hectic but fun and the two of them are giddy with joy and disbelief. Nice to be around that kind of wide open positive emotion. No one in their county is wearing masks anymore and that's also wonderful! Most everyone who wants to be is vaccinated up there. The courts, being a government agency, are still restricted but it won't be long before someone starts threatening legal action. Some folks have been in jail for over a year now waitng a court date. Pretty uncool. For those who don't know, my daughter and her beau are public defenders.

D and I are spending a ton of time in the yards, trying to massage it all into a cohesive look. We are definitely a zillion times closer to that end goal this year than we were last year. I still have some major plantings I would like to do - either dogwoods, hedgerows or rhodies. D is in charge of the lawn and that's on hold while we finish up with the sealing of the pool decks. I bought twinkle lights and outdoor string lights for the lounge and that's up next on our to-do list. I want to take pictures for you all but I'm so frustrated with the disconnect in getting them uploaded and posted. I think I will need to take the dslr outside and use that instead of the phone.

I hope I can carve out time this week to launch the new writers group. Right now we are up and running on LJ, but I want to see if I can set it up here and crosspost there. 

Still studying Tarot, so no new fiction for me. I need to write something for the writers workshop I'm in, so maybe I'll have something new to share by next week. 

My love for donkeys and wildly "other" lives makes this video spectacular. This is the kind of thing that sparks fiction for me. Enjoy -




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