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* Watch The Timber if you, like me, love love love these European takes on dark, folkloric, Jungian, moody Westerns. So symbolic. THE BEAR!!! Just adored this film. Very much exactly like The Dark Valley and Black Field.

* I'm trying to both keep track and not keep track of the more difficult conversations I'm having with my mother. Not as a grudge collector, but more as an assessment tool. My mother is not well, not coping well, and not projecting wellness of any kind, actually. It's depressing to the point of having it ache in one's bones, into the marrow depression. There doesn't seem to a thing anyone can say or do.

* OMG, now we're hearing that some of the ghost ship victims sent goodbye texts. I just cannot with that. It hurts my brain. Those of us who are millenials or love millenials know that this is 100% how it would happen.

* Instead of a Christmas song, have an automata swan -


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rayaso
Dec. 6th, 2016 09:57 pm (UTC)
I wish there could be something I could say or do for you that would help you with your mother. Your family has been in my thoughts. If your mother has been saying some painful or hurtful things, it is only her illness speaking, and despite it all I hope you can focus on the good times in the middle of all this.
bleodswean
Dec. 6th, 2016 10:53 pm (UTC)
Thank you, G. I appreciate it. I wish there was something "I" could say or do....nothing is helping. It's a pretty damned helpless feeling.

We are trying to bring pockets of joy into this...despite her resistance.
kittytoes
Dec. 6th, 2016 10:45 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry about your mother. I have no help to offer, but I know you are strong enough to stay where she needs you.

Oh, that fire. It's too horrible. I can't fathom goodbye texts either.

The swan is magic though. Thanks for that. There aren't many things which elicit the same wonder as automata regardless of the century. <3
bleodswean
Dec. 6th, 2016 10:56 pm (UTC)
Thanks, K. I'm sorry, too. And wish that she could get clear long enough to realize that time is wasting away and there really is no call for this...but she's mired. It's terrible. I do continue to try, despite her resistance.

That fire.

Did you know milkeye when she went on a continental tour to see ALL THE AUTOMATA? Very cool. I think some of our small robot toys come somewhat close.
ryl
Dec. 6th, 2016 10:48 pm (UTC)
THAT SWAN!
THOSE FISH!
THAT WATER!

It's so hard to watch your parents decline. I'm having a hard time watching my dad go down the same road as my mom. *hugs*
bleodswean
Dec. 7th, 2016 01:26 am (UTC)
Isn't that swan just the most amazing thing you've ever seen???? I love it. Beyond reason.

It's hard and there's no precedence in your life up to this point so it all feels new and not a bit of it is positive. Just really something to be endured. Thanks, sweets. I know you're dealing with this, too. *hugs*
murielle
Dec. 6th, 2016 11:44 pm (UTC)
There is so little I can offer you regarding your mother, and I can only imagine how heartbreaking and devastating it must be for you and your whole family. All I know is that there is no easy way through it. I tried to take joy and laughter as it came, moments, as they came. Hugs

I notice Black Field is a Canadian film, or at least has a Canadian cast. I will try to track it down. It looks interesting.

I haven't been watching the news much, but that fire, with so many lives lost--horrific.

The swan is magnificent! Glad you didn't post another seasonal song. I'm still battling the earworm from yesterday. (Smile) Why is it always just a couple of bars?

Hugs
bleodswean
Dec. 7th, 2016 01:27 am (UTC)
*HUGS* Thank you, M. I'm trying very hard to take pages out of your book....bring joy, smile, stay upbeat, don't give in...it's a job worth doing.

I really liked Black Fields but I tend to run towards the darker...as you know. ;)

Earworms! At least it's a Christmas song!
elenbarathi
Dec. 7th, 2016 08:24 am (UTC)
*hugs* I'm sorry it's so hard now.

That swan is amazing! Now I'll have to look up Merlin's other automata. Thanks!

EDIT: Here is something to fascinate you! The 2008 Silver Swan Conservation Project - an account of how, over the course of 13 weeks, they took the whole thing apart, cleaned and mended it, and put it back together. Enjoy!

Edited at 2016-12-07 11:31 am (UTC)
bleodswean
Dec. 7th, 2016 04:06 pm (UTC)
Thanks, hon. *HUGS*

Oh wow!!!! That link!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!
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