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they told us our gods would outlive us

* The Real LJ Idol has returned and it isn't on LiveJournal! It's over at DreamWidth. DW isn't intuitive for me. It feels clunky. And vastly empty, but alas, so does LJ these days. Just a vast, unoccupied space. Anyway. Looks as though some familiar names are returning, some new names perhaps, too. I need to sit with this a while and ponder my ability to write creatively. I know that I produce when I write to a deadline, it's the stuckness of the creative gears that has me pausing.

* I have been writing non-fiction to a deadline for the past calendar year. Last month I was offered a monthly column position on the magazine and I accepted. I'm still doing a ton of copy-editing and random article penning, but a column! I have been a columnist before, long long ago and it's a friendly sort of job. People want you to come to their gatherings when they know you have a byline. You can also get a bit of an ego as a columnist but with small-town work it's easy to keep it in perspective. No Pulitzers for interviewing the guy who shot a hole-in-one in his backyard golfcourse.

* It's Autumn!!! Happy Fall, flist! I'm ready for some cleansing rain.

* I have become a quiet person.

* Not enjoying this final season of The Originals. The story is weak, but it's more the finality of decisions. It would be GREAT fodder for fandom...but we all know how out of tune that tired song has become now.


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swirlsofblue
Sep. 21st, 2018 05:47 pm (UTC)
You should do whatever's best for you. But as you're trying to get the creative gears going, maybe you could sign up, see how it goes and then drop out if it's not working for you.

I've signed up for Idol. I was looking for a word for dreamwidth, and yes clunky is exactly it.

I enjoyed the last season of The Originals, it wasn't the best of seasons, but it was an ending. I cried a lot. And took issue with the portrayal of the ending choice.
bleodswean
Sep. 21st, 2018 06:05 pm (UTC)
You're right, that's what I should do! It's hard for me to consider joining up without wanting to WIN! I need to adjust that approach to so many things now....Glad you're going again, J!

Yay someone has watched this tragedy! I just finished the Hayley episode and am stunned. What a senseless ending for our girl. Elijah's girl, really...I did not approve of that. And I really don't like Hope. Like at all. Also, so much subterfuge!
swirlsofblue
Sep. 22nd, 2018 07:09 am (UTC)
Good luck with adjusting your approach, I know it can be hard. For me I change what it means to 'win' set different goals and accomplishing them is 'winning'. Like last time one of my goals was writing a whole mini-series and I managed that so for me that was 'winning'.

It was a senseless ending for her, especially as she could've easily just pushed vampire lady out into the sunlight. I really like Hope, the main issue is it's all set up, they set up some amazing stuff with her but nothing ever comes to fruition.
bleodswean
Sep. 22nd, 2018 04:02 pm (UTC)
I like that encapsulation idea of "winning", J! I will try to apply that to so many things that call for it now. I will sign up!

I've never been one hundred percent on board with Julie and crew and these two shows have been more disappointing, ultimately, than rewarding. She has a gift for casting and that has made the shows worth watching. I'm dreading continuing but I have to know!!!
murielle
Sep. 21st, 2018 06:32 pm (UTC)
It's dreadful to feel so ambivalent about something that brought me so much joy for two years, but I do. I dread the politics, and the Idol politics. Nastiness has never been a turn on for me, it's why I dropped all the reality shows I used to watch. I just didn't want it in my home or in my head. I still don't.

Congratulations on getting a column!

Autumn happened overnight, here. Went to bed and everything was green and gorgeous woke up and the leaves had turned and were carpeting the ground. Summer was short because we lost a month to the smoke, then barely a breath and it was Fall. Curiouser and curiouser, E. Was it like that with you?

You all are being so polite. Idol on DW is a pain in the ass.

bleodswean
Sep. 21st, 2018 06:38 pm (UTC)
You know...I wonder if that is some of my ambivalence as well. I mean I know I'm not filled with boundless energy at the moment...but something about a new Idol season is just chilling me. And yeah, DW doesn't help! LOL! I should be posting THIS over THERE...and yet here I am HERE. Hmmmm....between you and J and G, I guess I should just sign up, send Gary some ducats and HOLD FAST.

Yes, same exactly! We had no summer and when the smoke cleared the sun had dropped in the sky and the trees were shedding leaves. Strange...And I was wanting summer this year. An unusual thing for me. But I am happy that the darker season has returned.

*HUGS*
murielle
Sep. 21st, 2018 07:51 pm (UTC)
Fall is the prettiest season! Beautiful, and mysterious, like a woman in the third trimester of her life.

Knitting time!
mallorys_camera
Sep. 21st, 2018 07:51 pm (UTC)
Dreamwidth takes some getting used to, but you'll pick it up quickly. I'm happy to be a resource for you if you run into problems.

Their photo resource is actually better than LJ's. I think. :-)

Also, you know, you can crosspost very easily between LJ and DW, which means yr LJ pals who don't want to go over to DW can continue reading you. That's what I do. It's a little bit confusing because I have a few friends now who only comment on DW, though the majority of my friends are on LJ. But one gets used to it.
bleodswean
Sep. 22nd, 2018 04:04 pm (UTC)
Are you over there, P? I need to set aside some time and read over it, try the posting features, the crossposting...and just learn the damned thing. Not sure why I'm resisting it so much.
mallorys_camera
Sep. 22nd, 2018 04:14 pm (UTC)
I actually post from DW. I stopped using LJ as my primary site as a protest over Russia's crackdown on gays. (I'm sure Russia took that to heart! :-) )

But I mirror on LJ. And most of my online journal buddies are on LJ. Though I am acquiring a few that are DW only.

The interface is slightly different. And, of course, all writers are slightly OCD about interfaces, numbers of pencils on desk, precise distance in millimeters that cup is set from scented candle on desk, etc. :-)

So, I understand your distress. :-)
bleodswean
Sep. 22nd, 2018 04:19 pm (UTC)
Heh. Well, I just jumped in head first! We shall see!
xo_kizzy_xo
Sep. 22nd, 2018 03:55 am (UTC)
I still don't have a new laptop, so I'm sitting this one out. It's probably just as well, given my schedule of late.
bleodswean
Sep. 22nd, 2018 04:03 pm (UTC)
Damn, girl! Are you planning on picking up a laptop then? I can't do any sort of interneting without a computer. Period.
rayaso
Sep. 22nd, 2018 03:41 pm (UTC)
Congratulations on your columns! I'm sure it will be wonderful. I'm sorry you feel the way you do about Idol, but I certainly understand it. Still, I would love to see you participating. You are such an extraordinary writer!
bleodswean
Sep. 22nd, 2018 04:03 pm (UTC)
Thank you, G! I will sign up this weekend! Now we have to get K on board!
rayaso
Sep. 22nd, 2018 04:07 pm (UTC)
That's a relief. I was afraid I was going to have to pester you with witty posts pestering you into signing up. I'm afraid K is lost to us this time. Too much work. I understand from her (I may be all screwed up on this) that your daughter now lives in our city. If you ever visit, give us a call.
bleodswean
Sep. 22nd, 2018 04:21 pm (UTC)
I can't imagine Idol without K's writing! I really can't! She was the one who introduced ME to Idol! That's a shame she's so busy with work. There's life to be lived and words to be written!

Yes, S moved back downtown in August, right after the bar, to begin an internship in Woodland. She's STILL settling in. I think law school must be at the top of the list for the most anxiety-provoking thing a body can do to itself! With prison and being nominated for Supreme Court justice on the list. I will let you two know when I visit!
millysdaughter
Sep. 24th, 2018 04:04 am (UTC)
I miss my weekly column. Small town stuff, yes...but it was my thing. I haven't been able to get that kind of discipline on my blog -- seriously, how hard **is** it for me to put out 500 words per week???
halfshellvenus
Oct. 1st, 2018 06:44 am (UTC)
I'm glad the copy-editing and writing work has been going well for you. I know the initial timing of that wasn't great, but it sounds as if you've worked it out. :)
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